What inspires and moves me.

I'm a very fussy person.
Yeah, I'm very fussy... not with food, not with friends, not with outings... okay a little bit.
No, what I really fussy about is what I'll feed my soul with.
I'm a writer and digital artist. Granted I don't really make any money off of these, but if I have to say something that I am, that is it.
No, what I'm trying to get to is that.
I'm so fussy with art, with what I feed my soul that I miss out on a lot.
I wasn't always this fussy, but in the recent two years I've become extremely fussy.
And it's a shame because I really want to be captivated and moved by so many things yet nothing much is doing it for me.
I have this belief. That if you create something, it should be art, it should be from the depths of your soul. But I also believe it should have some market value- IE: be accessible to a wider audience.
Now what's my predicament?
I'M NOT GETTING ENOUGH SOUL FOOD!
Yes, I said it. I want more soul food, as I'm starving on what I have.
I literally have to go out and create my own soul food because what I'm getting, in the most part is not nourishing me, at all.
I want art that is deep, meaningful, entertaining, beautiful and accessible to me when I want and not too over stretch.
If I'm going to read a book I want to be entertained from the very first page to the last. I want suspense, I want action, I want romance and humour. I just want the words to flow.
Why are so few authors capable of giving me the full package? That's all I ask.
The only author that has come close to giving me everything was Stephenie Meyer in her story "The Host"
And at a far stretch The Amazing Mr Enter in his story "Little Cassie" and "Love Lust and Lollicons" a fanfic I read a LONG time ago.
I have a very short attention span. If it doesn't entertain me straight away I will quickly stop. I'm not interested in a slow build up. If you are going to do one, then at least make the characters irresistible, 3 dimensional and interesting.

I fare better with movies, but still, out of ten I'll see only one or two will entertain. I'm very selective.
I want plot! An amazing plot that only amazing story tellers can tell.
And what do I get... boredom. Telling me I should be amazed when really all I am is SNORE...
Urgh...
Though animations never seem to fail me, I get ten a year now in the cinema, that is still not enough.
The only thing that seems to really work for me is... not surprisingly... music.

MUSIC, the only area I can't seem to tap with my talents. Music, the utter mystery in how people can strum a few notes and make my heart sing, dance and rejoice.
Make me feel utter heartbreak in a minute and in the next utter joy.
Music, able to touch the depths of my soul, reach out and just touch me every time.
I hate to admit it, but no matter how much I try of every other medium... none of them can have that consistent impact on me like music does.
What I'm trying to say is that, I want to be well fed, I want to have my soul stuffed when I please and not starve on this left overs of art I'm given.
I want to read INCREDIBLE BOOKS. I want to see more INCREDIBLE movies. And I want to be completely entertained in all areas... not just music.
Sigh,,, you get my point, don't you?

Top Ten Worst Angry Beaver Episodes

Here's a video of the top ten worst Angry Beaver episodes and my explanation as to why I personally dislike these episodes

Big Hero 6 Review

So what did I think of this movie?
It was good.
The ending saved it for me.
I could predict every twist a mile off but I think it was good family fair. It also didn't try to just go for adults. It was a mature kid/tween film which I liked. It wasn't just trying to cater to the adults and it was enjoyable. It did feel a little held back but I think it was because the two directors had only ever directed once before so didn't have as much experience with the really emotional stuff. Still I enjoyed it. It didn't try to be anything more than what it was. A nice flick which I may watch again and it dealt with the subject of loss and death very maturely. A nice film which will leave you feeling good. Going back to old school Disney in a way as such. 4 stars out of 5.

Dreamworks is NOT in trouble

Okay, people, people. PLEASE SETTLE DOWN about Dreamworks.
They are not in any deeper hole than what they have been in the past.
People have been going on and on about how much they've been struggling but they are not struggling any worse than usual.

Yes, 3 of their 4 last films didn't haven't really been successes but I can tell right here and right now, from a broader perspective why they aren't in trouble.

Number 1.

In the past their films also didn't earn that much money. The first four films they released only grossed around  300 million or less and it wasn't until Shrek did they get a big hit.
Secondly after Shrek a lot of their films still didn't gross that much. Most films averaged at around 300 million or less, meaning they also weren't box office successes and this has been going on for 20 years.
But here's the thing people. A movie earning 300 million is STILL a success in the broad scheme of things.
The average movie earns around 100- 150 million. That means that these films aren't average and ARE getting in the people! They're getting in a lot of people, just not enough to push the films pass sequel level.
Stand alone, these films actually are doing well!
It's only the budget which is out of control. An average Dreamworks film costs 120 million. An average CGI animated film should cost 70 mil to 90 mil. If Dreamworks could just cut down on its cost its films could all be successes!
A case example. Cloudy with a Chance Of Meatballs 2 cost 60 mil- 15 million less than it's predecessor. It grossed around 220 mil and that is below average for a sequel but guess what, because it was made relatively cheaply IT WAS A SUCCESS!
That's what I'm trying to tell ya! The average Dreamworks film is a success in that it's even passing 200 mil! And the films that pass 400 mil are the uber successes. How to Train Your Dragon, Kong Fu Panda, Madagascar and Shrek are the uber successes and earn more than enough to rival the big box office draws such as Guardians of The Galaxy or Dawn of the Planet of the Apes.
So people. PLEASE calm your shit! They are doing fine.
They're struggling, but honestly, they've always been struggling.
Peace out.

A taste of an Apple (After Thoughts after 2 years)

I was just reading over an old story I wrote a couple of years ago called "A taste of An Apple" and had to say something that kind of surprised me.

I actually wanted Rainbow and AJ to be together always.

Now I know what your thinking, it's a romance, that's what people want. But let me explain.

Applejack and Rainbow Dash just had such a loving relationship in it in the second part and third. They were just so comfortable around each other. They made each other grow as characters.

In the first part they weren't the best suited for each other. They were passionate and crazy in love but at the same time reckless and destroyed a lot of lives (including their own to a degree) They were basically immature.

I think the whole love between the two really didn't start to blossom till the second part where they had to live with the consequences of the first.

Applejack was now an invalid and Rainbow Dash had to be a carer.

But it gets deeper than that. Rainbow Dash had grown an emotional dependency on Applejack and Applejack in return had had to grow a physical dependency on Rainbow Dash.

The independent goal setted Rainbow Dash basically had to make a decision which was never shown of giving up her dreams to take on Applejack's role in the family whereas Applejack no longer had a purpose and was being taken cared of by Dash even though it made her angry.

It's just the way the two saw each other as the story progressed.

Applejack said jokingly in the third part "You see me as a Goddess" which Rainbow Dash laughed off but was actually true.

Whereas Applejack was just so afraid of hurting Rainbow Dash so much because Rainbow had literally given up everything to be there for her and with her.

I think Rainbow became softer and weaker in the presence of Applejack because she just didn't want to hurt her yet Applejack had to become softer too as Rainbow fell more and more in love with her to the point of her whole reason to live (Applejack) went and made Dash wish her life was over every day.

It was just... such a cruel story. I... I don't know why I wrote it like that. It was beautiful but so... unmerciful. I wish when I had written it I had not killed Applejack.

The sad thing is is that it was only when Applejack and Rainbow came to an understanding in mid Part 2 did they really start to blossom as such an amazing couple. When Applejack actually knew how deep Rainbow's emotions went (after Rainbow had to tell her) Applejack had to give up her defining feature (Stubbornness) to be the pony Rainbow had fallen in love with.

I just... I can't fathom how much love Rainbow had for Appleajack. I wished Applejack could've just loved her with the same amount back. As I read it it always felt like Rainbow was lacking in love back from Applejack, that Rainbow had literally given Applejack her whole being and Applejack... could never give it back.

But Applejack couldn't. She had to be the strong one. If she loved Rainbow as much as Rainbow loved her I doubt the two would've ever left the bedroom (no joke). But also when Applejack finally did give her whole being back to Rainbow (when she knew she was dying and there was no point hiding it anymore) that just made it all the more worse for Rainbow as Rainbow fell even deeper in love with her to the point where it was like a complete bottomless pit. Applejack should've never given her all to Rainbow that last day of her life. She shouldn't of. That's what broke Rainbow. That's what destroyed her when Applejack show her that she was as deeply in love with her as Rainbow was to Applejack.

I just... I can't believe how much these two ended up being in love. And how scary it was when Applejack died. And how just... how it literally made Rainbow never able to love anyone again.

Each part they fell more and more in love It's just mad.

First there was normal love.
Than one's love getting more intense than the other.
Than both just baring their souls.

The two didn't start off as soul mates but they sure as hell became them.

And the sad thing about it all is that the two probably would've never become that close if Applejack hadn't nearly died and become an invalid.

Truly, truly a great great tradegy... but a sadness that lingers long after reading it that it makes me sad.

I actually wanted Rainbow to just die... just so she could be with Applejack again. They truly did become Romeo and Juliet... I just wish Applejack had had longer periods with Rainbow before she died.

Heartbreaking.

My favourite Quotes from Film and TV

These are just quotes that have stuck with me over the years.

Lion King 2:
Them? Us? They are us. What differences do you see?

 The Simpsons:
If you are going to make me choose between my God and my man. I'm sorry but you are not going to win.

Pokemon The First Movie: I understand now it is not the circumstances of one's birth that matters, but what one does with the gift of life that is important.

 Paranorman: There's always someone out there for you. Somewhere.

Stand By Me: "Am I weird?" "Yeah, but so what? Everyone's weird."

Prince Of Egypt: When God sends you a blessing, you don't ask why it was sent.

My Favourite Ships that will never happen

Here's just a list of my top five favourite ships that will never come to be... sigh but who I've always been rooting for since I was a kid.
Anyway, I can still enjoy their friendships.
(This is from ships that will never or will likely never happen)

Number 5

Piggley and Danann 

I'm sorry but if you were a kid watching this you too would root for these two! I just thought they were perfect for each other. With Danann having a foil to every one of Piggley's plans I just had to ship them. The two would bicker back and forth all the time like they were a couple and would always have a comeback to the other's antics. I just liked their chemistry. I was a kid, they actually acted like kids and if their were of the same species they probably would've had crushes on each other. Often the ones who bicker the most over everything are the ones that just don't want to let down their guard and see they actually like the other. But yeah... they will never be so just thought I would start with them.

Number 4

Irma and Cornelia

Okay, when I was eleven to thirteen I actually watched this show and really liked these two together. I liked how Irma always had a sly comeback to Cornelia's sarcasm. I liked how they could get along and be completely different yet compliment each other so well. I really wanted them together. They just, they would've been awesome as a couple. Those two were the sexiest characters in the group and put together they would just bring a whole new dynamic. So yeah... again never gonna happen.

Number 3

Skipper and Kowalski

I only ship the movie version of Kowalski with Skipper but boy do I ship them hard. This is my newest pair I ship that I know will never happen. But damnit, Kowalski just has so much heart and respect for Skipper. I just... I like the leader and second in command thing going on here. Skipper leaves Kowalski to come up with all the plans and Kowalski never disappoints. I just want Skipper to show him some more love damnit! They are just so awesome together, hopefully in the movie they'll get some fuzzy moments <3

Number 2

Applejack and Rainbow Dash

Just buck and get it over with! These two fight back and forth like cats and dogs but it's so obvious they want each other (especially in the first two seasons when they had the most time together) They get along really well too when they're not fighting. If only it wasn't a little girls' show. The thing about this is that this relationship will never really be explored. That's one thing bad about Friendship is Magic. The friendships haven't been explored properly since season 1 and all we get now are just snippets. But yeah... THESE TWO. They just, they just... are awesome darn tootin! If one of them was a guy things would've been resolved in bed long ago but because their both girls I don't think it will ever really be shown other than frustrated sexual tension. Ah well.

Number 1

Brian and Stewie

OMG THEY LIKE ARE LIKE, GOD!! Why the hell do they have to be a baby and a DOG? But these two are just amazing together. Literally, the show has made it clear the two need each other in one another's life but they just... it frustrates me. There has been so many sexual jokes about these two, with Stewie's obsession with Brian to Brian actually being attracted to Stewie (unknowningly) when he dressed up as Karina Steel. God! But with this one I actually have some hope. Family Guy just might go there. Heck that Vault episode showed Brian licking Stewie's ass and him enjoying it too, Stewie not able to live with out Brian so goes back in time to save his life. These two might actually end up... some what... possibly, 1 out of a 100 chance of happening. So yeah... who knows. It may be just an extreme bromance but maybe one day it could actually turn into a real... romance?

So that's my top 5 ships that will never happen. Hope you liked.